"...that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life..." Psalm 27:4

God Calls, Consume & Commissions

2007-05-07T09:08:00.000-07:00

That's the topic for todays sermon. I really enjoyed the sermon by pastor daniel. =) Service was pretty good and the worship was good too. Great job johann and team! =) Fire Fire Fire!! I'll remember what pastor daniel preached. He said something like this:" Admist all the trying to organise events in the church, build big churches etc etc....wat we all need to draw people to God is FIRE! FIRE that burns within us, FIRE tt makes people wonder why we're on FIRE and where the source of fire's coming from...." What draws the pre-believers around us to GOD is this FIRE that burns for GOD....I want tt fire in my life...and im determined to start where it counts and where i am...in the ARMY! Anyway was really glad today i got to relac relac abit and hang out with friends and my cousins as well. Went for lunch with Soowei Jie, Rachel Choo, Rachael Lim(cousin), Rebecca Lim(cousin) and Matthias Lim(cousin).

With Rebecca at YaKun Toast...

With Rachael and Rebecca...

We went to Subway at Far East then went for KOPI at Yakun...was really good just to hang out, chill and talk....talking about tt...Soowei Jie really talked a lot....haaaa....all the funny things her kids does ah....wa....joker....this week....live range, and next week field camp!! Wooo.... packed packed packed all the way....thank God for such a refreshing wkend....Have a great wk ahead guys!!!

Random Rants

2007-04-30T08:00:00.001-07:00

I've officially ran out of things to blog...cos im stuck in camp 6 & 1/2 days for almost every week since bmt started....and my WORK....lets just say it never seems to end....bleah....i simply have no freedom man...and by the time its nights off for us in the night or time to book out for the wkend im drained and too tired to do anything...its been nuts ever since BMT started...i work day in day out, from the time i wake up till office hours offically ends...AND im still working...either carrying stuff physically or facing the computer the whole day trying to get old debts left by my upper study cleared and at the same time getting the new things done....and worse of all....whenever i go out to relax, have a meal, hang out with friends, go on my off days to rest...my phone's ringing NON-STOP...arrghhh....im gonna shoot someone in the head soon!! (nah, wont happen) check out this new FIG 11 i've got...haaa, cool!!

Figure 11...

And for the past few wkends i've been stuck in camp...doing duty and being confined with the newly recruited bmt guys...sigh...when will it end. I just feel like i've got no time for other things, friends, family, church ministry, go take random pictures, go to the beach for some volleyball game, go running....i cant do anything...hopefully after LAB inspection i'll be able to get some break....soon soon.

I feel really bad i haven been able to go for much youth service or invest my time in the ministry and the young people....somemore i promised Pastor Cuixian i'll attend youth at least twice a month...=( POO to me...i hope i'll have time and energy to do that soon....

Frens,pls pray that God sustains me and i'll draw closer to him...feel like im learning more about myself through this whole process and God's teaching me things but i just want some time out with God, to grow again, to go back to the basics and be close to him. I feel so tired and so drained.

Dedicated to YOU

2007-04-11T19:28:00.000-07:00

I pray that GOD will keep you strong and you'll continue to mature in him and love him even more as each day passes by. When u're going through a rough patch, continue to persevere and know that the Lord's with you and he has greater plans for you. And at the end of the day, may his light and glory be reflected in your life so that others around you will be drawn to him. Love u.

at cheesecake cafe...

at esplanade...

An all ARTY affair!!

2007-03-28T22:38:00.000-07:00

Inter-Formation Volleyball competition has ended and we came in 2nd...in total we played 7 games before reaching the finals...and it was an all artillery showcase with us taking on 3DIV...

Artillery Formation...

My one week MC week

2007-03-03T07:33:00.001-08:00

This whole week i've been on MC cos i had my wisdom tooth operation...*ouch*...contrary to what many believe....the battle wasn't with the pain from the intensive drilling the dentist did on my teeth(the drill really sounded scary)... or the immense pressure he applied to pull my teeth out....it was something really simple instead....keeping MY MOUTH OPEN!! It was so tiring to keep my mouth open for the whole operation which took almost 40mins. But nevertheless i must say the dentist, whose name's also GIDEON, was really professional...and he did an excellent job on my teeth....haaa....he kept assuring me that the operation's going well and that im doing great....

my wisdom tooth...

And i promised the guys i'll blog this....yesterday i went out with Brendon, Sheikh, John and James. We met for supper at Newton Circus. Brendon, Sheikh and I arrived first and we chatted for a long time while waiting for James and John. Then we got really hungry and decided to just order something to eat first. So we ordered 5 BBQ chicken wings and one plate of oyster omelette...and we each had a huge cup of sugarcane juice...we were pretty full after all that...then James and John finally came...so we decided to just order a plate of satay to share since it was what we had intended to do earlier on...and John went to order a plate of Char Kway Teow too...then Sheikh told me he's gonna go walk around and check out this seafood stall that James said was really good....then he came back and told us he ordered alot of stuff....right....initially we believed him when he stopped at stingray and kang kong...after that when he carried on to crab and squid we were pretty convinced that he was lying...only to find out we were wrong...Sheikh really did order all that stuff he mentioned....i still cant believe he really did that....so at the end of the day...one cannot eat seafood guy cos he just had operation(brendon), that leaves us with 4, two full guys(james and i), one semi full guy(john) and one hungry man(sheikh), had to finish 20sticks of beef satay, 20 sticks of chicken satay plus 2 ketupat, one dish of kang kong, one dish of baby squid, one dish of stingray, one dish of 10 fried bread, 4 plates of white rice and one dish of Chilli crab....and that's excluding all the drinks we've had and the char kway teow, BBQ chicken and oyster omelette earlier on....and i seriously cant believe we managed to finish all that....I must admit though i really had a good time with them....encouraging each other to jia you...haaa....and on a serious note i need to start my run soon...i haven been able to do that since the wisdom tooth operation which landed me one week MC and no exercise...

Chilli Crab, Satay, Bread, Stingray, Baby Squid...

Chilli Crab...

Stingray and Baby Squid...

Crab-py Gid...

Sheikh and Brendon...

James really cant eat anymore...

John and I...

CNY 07

2007-02-25T01:06:00.000-08:00

Its the chinese new year season and i had quite a fruitful chinese new year this year...celebrations began as early as 3days before chu yi...it started off with my unit's celebration...my battery was in-charge of organising the event and we held a dodge ball competition between each department in the unit....and guess who emerged as winners....haaa....after that we had our chinese new year lunch....food on the menu was pretty good....oh oh oh...and my RSM flung the yu sheng so high it got stucked on the ceiling....think i'll go get the picture and upload it...the following day we had our individual battery celebration and my battery went down to "hey hey hotpot"...apparently opened by mediacorp artist chao guo hui....yup...food was pretty good but the portions were really small....so we ended up ordering a few plates of each item...and i think my battery commander, Cpt Freda, ended up paying alot for the whole meal....haaa...cos we had abalone and etc....all the expensive stuff.

First Dish of the Day, yu sheng...

my battery mates...from left clockwise, Brian, Cpt Freda, Cpt Loh, Chow Wei, Jian Yi, Hong Seng, Guo Xian, Dennis, Daniel and Alvin...

Lao Yu Sheng...

Platinum Beef which cost 19.90...super ex...

Yam and Fried Beancurd Skin...

Meat Ball...

Drunken Prawns...

I had my lesson at Lily's too....been wanting to post pictures of the view from her place and finally i managed to get some shots...would've been nicer if i was there near sunset....its a very romantic view man....can see the whole of sentosa too...=)

Through Lily's window...

Golf Course in front of Lily's place...

The expressway and PSA in front of Lily's place

This is where i usually stand when i sing...

Spunky the Dog who sings...

Lastly....(not really, i went for CNY visitation too but not gonna blog all of that here) i had a good and fun mahjong session with my fellow coursemates. Dino, Doris and Steven....and they came to my place without informing me beforehand....haaa...i was like out at my cousin's place lah....but luckily my cousin's place is only 10min away from my house....thanks guys for the mahjong session and the pizza and drumlets u guys bought...

Picture with Dino and Doris...

Picture with Dino, Doris and Steven...

So after CNY break, i went back to my unit on wednesday and we had an artillery relay...ran my heart out and my RSM was even cheering me on upon reaching the finishing line....kind of....he just shouted in hokkien....gin ah....ao bei wu lang lai liao....open ur leg and stride!!! haaaa...i had alot of fun doing the run....and clocked a pretty reasonable timing too....i ran 1.85km under 7min 30secs....must improve my timing even further in my future runs....

Then thursday had a friendly volleyball game with combat engineers. We drew the game as we only played 4sets...think we'll need more practise to prepare for the tournament coming up in march.

Anyway folks, i've set up another flickr account cos my current one overflow liao and flickr say must pay money to upgrade....so if u view the latest photos and wonder why i have so little photos in it only its becasue they're all in the old account....so just click on the older pictures and they'll bring you to the old account.

Blogging Again

2007-02-11T10:26:00.000-08:00

Oh man its been ages since i last blogged. Just a short update. I completed my 4month long course on the 24th of jan and went back to my unit on the 29th. I really miss my coursemates man. It's been such a fruitful journey with them and i really enjoyed my time with them...Thank you guys for being such an awesome bunch of friends to me....special mentions Sheikh, Dino, John, Brendon, Junaidi, Steven, James, Issac, Roy and of cos not forgetting ABANG (malay for brother...haaa) Lyz and Doris....thank you my dear brothers and sisters.

I also got a chance to meet up with Cherlyn and Weiqiang....and of cos the other 7 ex-co members from the prefectorial board who became pilots and put the three of us airplane.....haaa....im evil right....well i hope i can see u guys during the next ex-co meet up session. ha.

Photo taken with Cherlyn...

Photo taken with Cherlyn and WeiQiang...

So back in unit and now just busy preparing for the ptp/bmt intake in March...and guess wat....im back to playing competitive indoor volleyball....haaa....awesome man. Loved it.

Anyway folks pray for me k....something came up over the past week and it was something i've been praying about and now its here i really dun know how to deal with it....i need God's direction and wisdom so pls cover me in your prayers k guys. Thank you all so much. That's all for now.

I feel so sian blogging with so much pictures....bleah....hope i can start taking photos soon man.

My Bdae Photos!

2007-01-15T20:35:00.000-08:00

Thank you ALL who celebrated my Birthday with me and for making it a memorable one...=) Those who got cake on my face will pay back another time...i'll personally make sure....MUuuuuaaahaaaaa....*evil grin*

Cake From Angie The Choice...

First on my cheeks...

Then it went to my forehead...

Then it went ALL OVER MY FACE!!!

The mastermind...Sheikh on the right of the pic

Picture with Dino at V8 cafe...

Picture with Isaac at V8 cafe...

Isaac with his Salmon...

Dino with his chicken chop...

Mango and punch...

My dinner, Sirloin Steak...

Cake came from nowhere and caught me by surprise...i felt so paisei...people started staring!!! haaaa

I was made to pose for super long...so that i can continue to malu myself in front of everyone!!!

Finally can cut my cake...

Then i was made to take the candles out with my mouth only...

Wax aint taste good...

Then i got FRAGGED in the face out of nowhere...

Finally met up with my sec school mates at Jansen's farewell party at his GFs house... (after 5years), mainly prefects, from left to right, serene, serene bf, michelle bf, michelle, yvonne bf next to michelle, behind yvonne bf in pink is David, Yvonne in front of her bf, jansen with his gf in front of him, next to jansen is me, next to jansen gf is grace, next to me is wai see bf, and lastly waisee...

Mom made me this durian cake...even though i told her dun need...she never fails to make one for me every bdae...

With my dear bro, joshua, he wasnt wearing shirt thats why...

With my MOMMY...do we look that identical...

This pic sums up my bdae...exactly 12am...im really old man!!!

Early B'DAE gifts....

2007-01-07T23:12:00.000-08:00

Got my first early bdae gift for the year 2007 from Dino...polar running set, which includes a watch, heart rate detector and a foot pod. Basically it tells me the distance i ran, the time i took, the average time per km, the average and max heart rate, the calories i burnt, etc etc....really really cool stuff....but super ex too...thanks alot Dino...and i got a new mountain bike too...haaa...but im gonna have to endure the week outfield before celebrating on sat...hope outfield's gonna be alright...my knees totally giving way...and I haven had a good run in AGES!!! Pls pray that my knees recover soon...have a good week ahead folks..=)

Polar set in the box...

Polar Watch...Red

Polar Heart Rate Detector...

Polar Foot Pod...

My new bike...love the combination of blue and red

Bike...

More Photos

2007-01-04T22:36:00.000-08:00

More photos of Aaron and Elizabeth's Wedding...

Aaron's hand...

Liz outside level 2 hall...

Aaron and Liz holding hands...

Aaron checking out the current situation...

Liz's dress...

Liz during make up...

Aaron in the car...

After having some Tang Yuan...

Liz's slipper..

Liz getting in the car...

Aaron and Elizabeth's BIG day...

2007-01-02T22:06:00.000-08:00

What a day its been for me and for Aaron and his wife, Elizabeth. Had the honour and priviledge of taking their wedding shoot for them...totally enjoyed myself....watch this space for more photos of their wedding...

Gorgeous Liz...

Handsome Aaron...

My very Last Post for 2006

2006-12-31T22:32:00.000-08:00

Man...Its been a long time since i last posted here...loads of stuff over the past 2weeks....and what a busy weekend...Friday: went for dinner with Peter, Freda, Linus, Ricky, Jem & Johann at the Singapore Swimming Club....ate the beef noodles recommanded by Freda....she said it was really good...but hmmm.....haaa...the uncle that cooked the REALLY GOOD beef noodles no longer works there and we ended up eating some funny beef ball(and we all agreed on it) the club came up with....haaa...luckily the rest of the food made up for it....then Sat: whole day out with my course mates and in the night drove down to meet all the camy guys and gals(camy retreat)...im glad i went down despite a few factors that made me procrastinate(tired after such a long day, very far----camp was in G2 but they were having dinner at Keat Hong and i dunnoe how to get there =), gotta lug my stuff down if im staying over, i gotta wake up early to drum in G2 e next day) and kept changing my mind here and there....but finally i decided to go....y? Because i want to keep my word....told joey, johann, joel, jeremy and ricky i'll be going...and im sure glad i went...though it wasnt long and i din managed to talk to everybody...at least i spoke to a few people whom i think i barely spoken 3 words to in the whole of 2006. Firstly was Kerpal....managed to talk to him cos a few of us went to play Lan in Orchard till 3am....haaa....then there was HuiYi and Grace Ng...cos i "dong pan" them home along with Huifen....i had fun and enjoyed myself though i was really tired....Finally Sun: woke up at 6am(2hours of slp only....blame myself....haaa..) went to church in the morning and almost dozed of when Pastor Calvin was preaching...but i din....then helped my DAD for the rest of the day...so thats how i spent my last wk end of 2006....Thinking back about what Pastor Calvin preached about today..."FINISHING STRONG"... this year was really a tough year for me...but through the ups and downs...i know it was GOD who carried me through time and time again....and HE always stood by me in my lowest moments...i pray 2007 will be a new beginning for me...one where i'll be able to forget the past and move to fulfilling God's will and purpose for me in my life....

Peter tries putting him in the baby seat.......

He cried and even managed to find time to pose for a shot...

Then he got grumpy....after his "i'll force my tears out and bluff daddy so i can come down from the chair and go run around and play" got revealed by Peter when he said "stop forcing your tears"...

Then he took a last look at the other kids who were having fun before he decided to just give up since he's not gonna get down anyway.......

Then when the food came....he started to find the chair rather interesting...

Happy boy after all...

Chicken Wing..

Beef noodles...

Malay Version of Kueh Tu Tu...

Jem staring at Johann...

Freda eating the Malay Kueh Tu Tu...

Ricky's Emo Shot...

Pic of Peter and Freda...

Johann, Jeremy and Ricky...

Ricky and Linus...

Time to go home...

Peter and Freda staring at Baby Linus...

Linus and I...

Linus looking COOL...

AND THE PICTURE OF THE DAY WILL HAVE TO GO TO THIS GUY! Love having a DSLR at times like these....

Linus on the swing...

Busy DEC!!

2006-12-13T22:39:00.000-08:00

Haven been blogging cos i DUN have the time so im just gonna sum up the past week at one go....haaa...lets start with last tuesday.....went to camp as usual but left camp earlier cos went for my cohesion day with other pals from my unit....we went to marina square to have lunch at kenny rogers then went for bowling...had a good time cos i haven seen them in ages...but a bad time also cos i was feeling so sick the whole time....my throat was burning and i felt feverish....dun know why all of sudden fell sick...so was on MC and until today im still having a bad throat....really dun know whats going on....

Chengkun and I at Marina Bowling centre

Saturday went to sentosa with my coursemates again....i must say they're pretty "gung ho" abt going sentosa to play volleyball, chill and suntan....since the start of the course i think we've been there at least 3times already man....haaa....met issac and dino at 7plus as usual but i only reached at 8....then we went to siloso beach, which is our usual hang out and started playing volleyball....the weather was pretty bad when we first got there...even rained....really dampened our spirits....but thank God that din last long....cos the sun was out around 10ish....and from there the whole day just took a turn....had so much fun with the guys playing volleball and challenging other people who came to play as well....i got to know some new people too...cos before we went back i actually teamed up with 4 other strangers (nicholas, augustine, albert and xiao qi) to play a match against another team that was pretty good too....i had a really great time and really enjoyed the whole match....it was exciting, fast and competitive....shiok man!!! Made me thought about the days when i played volleyball in St Hilda's Sec...

Collage of Sentosa Pics

I played volleyball till i got burnt!!

Sunday celebrated my granny's(dad's mom) birthday at Rach's house...had lotsa food and a great time catching up with my cousins...felt something was missing though.... anyway Rhema Conference started on Sunday and today's the last day....i signed up for the night rallies thinking i can make it in time....but i forgot these few weeks are "chiong sua" week....arrgh....

Granny giving thanks for the food

Getting ready to sing the birthday song for granny

Blowing the candle and Cutting the cake

Uncle struggling to hold shen long down

My nephew aka "Long Ge"

My nephew aka "Chao Ah Beng"

Monday(had to stay in), Tuesday outfield (reached home 9plus), Today (reached home 7ish, 8) also outfield but within camp....sigh....the one thing i really regret is not being able to go for any of the Rhema rallies....hope i can make it for the next one if our youth is gonna do another conference....tmw still got training and prep for exercise UNDERSLUNG, fri's actual UNDERSLUNG and next weeks outfield outfield outfield again....think i shall go sleep now....

Component training day....try finding me....not hard at all....haaa

Shaun and I

Doris and I

Dehydrated!!!

RAINBOW...

D-Day!!!

2006-12-03T00:47:00.000-08:00

Today's THE DAY...cos it's Standard Chartered Marathon Day!! Been waiting for this day to run my 21km...woke up early...kind of....5.15am....took 2 bananas, 1 snicker bar and 1 endurance drink to prepare myself for the run...felt so full after all that intake...=)...then DAD fetched me to Esplanade where the starting point is....MAN!!! i was SHOCKED to see so many runners....i din know Singaporeans run....haaaa....i can barely squeeze myself to the front where the starting point is....in fact when the 21km run was flagged off i had to wait like 7min plus plus for the crowd to clear before i got to the starting line and started my run....phew...wat a way to start...but from there it was AWESOME man....got to see loads of stuff besides the scenary...firstly was the un-sightly peeing the guys did at the marina U-TURN point....there was like.... one whole stretch of guys in a horizontal row doing their business admist the bushes IN THE OPEN!!!! Cant imagine singaporeans do that in public where eveyone can see....but then again cant blame them....the toilet queues were SUPER long...talk abt toilet...i din even go to the toilet once for the entire 21km....even though i felt really urgent when i started the race...i thought i could just dispose it by running....haaa....must be the numerous cups of plain water yesterday and endurance drink this morning...so that was the first sight...next sight was completely stunning...left me SPEECHLESS....as i was passing my 10click mark this lady came from behind and overtook me....ok...tts normal...alot of good female runners....but wat happened next was lik....she took off her top after overtaking...i was thinking to myself what just happened....dun even know how to describe it....of cos she had her sports bra on but the whole thing was like out of no where....OUTRAGEOUS...then was the sight of people in strange outfit or people carrying strange stuff...there was this lady dragging some boxand tyre behind her which says ice-lady....then another lady wearing some reindeer hat which had hoofs....wats really encouraging was there were a few other ladies helping the lady who's dragging the box thingy to pull the box so she dun have to carry so much weight while running....then the next sight was this blind guy running with a helper....that kinda thing is like...happens only in movies....haaa...BUT the greatest experience i had while running was i actually managed to worship (in my heart of cos).... and by doing so i felt like the Holy Spirit was running next to me (even though i think it should be floating instead) and it really touched my heart...during the run there was this song that came up on my ipod..."AMAZED"...at that point i was reminded of how much God loves me and how blessed i am to be able to breathe...to walk...to RUN! I recalled what i've been going through the last few months and i thank God for it...i thank God for true friends who guided me through and gave me encouragement when i needed it most...i thank God for bringing new friends into my life...friends who cares for me...ALL of that gave me strength and even more determination to run my race....so i ran and ran and finally completed my run....i felt rather good after the run....after all its my first half marathon...and im glad i ran it well....so after my run i waited for DINO to finish his 42km (you did really well bro, good job!!) before we both headed to Suntec for Fish & Co...had a good meal and DAD picked me up and sent me home (thank God he was still in the area)...was talking to JOEY on the phone and SHEIKH via sms....they both did the 42km run too....proud of you guys man...good run guys! Now i think for the next few days im gonna have to limp my way here and there!!
=(.....wat a run!

My Timing
Distance: 21km
Timing: 2hr 23min

Dino's Timing
Distance: 42.195km
Timing: 4hr 51min

What an EXPERIENCE!

2006-11-26T17:52:00.000-08:00

Today i wanted to try something really ambitious....almost impossible considering the fact i've never done it before in my life...plus i haven done any training or preparation prior to "IT"... so what's "IT"? "IT" = run home from church...i decided to do it cos soccer training was cancelled...and it'll be a good time to see and guage where i am in terms of stamina and endurance...and at the same time prepare for Standard Charted Half Marathon which is happening this coming Sunday 3rd Dec...i wasn't looking for timing but rather to finish the whole run...And thank God i managed to do just that and without any accidents or mishaps...(unlike poor dino who fell into some manhole cos it was too dark, not suaning you at all bro...think u did really well for that run)...only thing was my right calf and TOE (for the FIRST time ever!!!) cramped...haaa..other than that everything was good even though it rained for some time at the start of my run...here's details of run

Distance: Approx 18km
Time: Approx 2hr 18min
Calories Burnt: 1537

Start point: Church (355 Tanglin Road)
Running Route: Tanglin Road, Past Far East (started to rain), Past Newton Circus, Past Novena Square, Past CDC (rain kinda stopped), Down Mac Pherson Road, Down Paya Lebar Road (from Mac Pherson down Paya Lebar is really tiring cos its never ending, super long stretch), Up towards Eunos(took power gel), Cut across to take Bedok Reserviour Road(hydrated myself with H2O), all the way down to Tampines...
End Point: My House

Hopefully i'll recover in time to do the run this sunday...now i shall go indulge myself in some FOOD!!!!

Why do people treat relationship so lightly?

2006-11-24T22:58:00.000-08:00

I really cant stand this anymore....i have to blog it...y do people take relationship so lightly? y do so many couples treat it as a game? From the time i entered NS till now i've heard so many people around me saying:"if she does it to me, i'll just do it back."..."if she finds another guy i'll find another girl"..."If she can do this why cant i do it"...."i'll make sure i do someething to hurt her before i dump her"...and many many more nasty things i've heard along the way which i feel are too explicit to share...y must love turn out to be a game of doing something to hurt the other person...then in the first place why say u love each other??? Cos of that implusive feeling? Cos that person looks good to be with? Cos u just want to have a partner? Or whatever it may be. Y do people turn something so beautiful to something so NASTY... UGLY ... FULL OF PAIN? If your partner did something to hurt you in a relationship be it what...why must you go do it back so your partner gets a taste of it... do to others what you want others do to you...and likewise if u dun like others to hurt you then why do it to hurt others....why think you can fool around and get away with it....it will come around one fine day...and you'll have to bear all that pain yourself... is it worth it?

Matthew 5:38-42
"You have heard that it was said,"Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth." But I tell you, Do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also. And if someone wants to sue you and take your tunic, let him have your cloak as well. If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him two miles. Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.

Why cant think carefully before you even say you love someone...for that moment it may bring chills down the person's spine and make the person feel really loved....but in the long run it may just turn out to be a phrase that's gonna bring someone ALOT ALOT of pain instead...WHY jump into a relationship just like that....get to know that person more and PRAY about it...its the FIRST thing to do....and WHY change partner like changing clothes....its something i really despised since young...BE committed to your partner...dun hurt her/him...WHY say its cos your partner is like that like this so you decided to break up....i find that's the worst excuse you can give and it just tells how IM-MATURE YOU ARE...LEARN to love the person for who he/she is...cos love is about accepting the person for who that person is....it goes beyond loving the person for the good things he/she has....but rather loving the person in all aspects of his/her character including the flaws the person has...anyone and everyone can love a person that has no flaws and is totally lovable but NOT many can love someone who is not perfect...from the number of girlfriends/boyfriends one changes speaks for itself what kind of person the guy/girl is, how he/she treats the other gender and how he/she treats love...

1 Corinthians 13:4-7
Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrong. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hope, always perseveres.

There's only one person to learn from...the author and perfecter of our faith. Jesus himself is a great example of what love IS!!

Gone Forever...

2006-11-21T21:16:00.000-08:00

AH YI has left us............

Mixed Emotions

2006-11-19T21:49:00.000-08:00

Today's a day filled with ups and downs for me...esp emotionally....the day started with me going for youth...i haven been the best at all spiritually....i cant seem to find the Gid of the past...the one who loved GOD and the one who's close to GOD...i dun know where i stand now in him...its been a long long time since i felt really close to DADDY...ever since "that thing" happened a few months ago....i seemed to have lost sight of everything in my life....i blamed myself over the past few months....i took it out on myself....and worse of all....i think i took it out on GOD too...i just came back from the hospital with my mom and aunt(cousin rach's mom)... went to see my mom's sister....my ah yi...she's gonna be "going off" soon...emotions flooded me straight away when i saw ah yi lying on the bed...with her eyes closed....barely breathing....supported by an air tube only...and the worst sight was she was reduced to bones....i felt really sad...the ah yi i once knew who's so healthy and nice to us seemed like she's in so much pain... and seeing her struggling to hang on made me really depressed....depressed and down cos she doesnt know CHRIST....and i can do nothing except to watch her go...tts another soul lost in the kingdom of GOD and all i can do is just stand and watch....and its only a matter of time she's gone for good...and my cousins will have to make the decision....its really tough. This disease, that eats away ones' muscles till he/she is reduced to bones and dies eventually, already took a toll on my uncle who died a few years ago because of it....and now its happening to ah yi...i pray and pray and pray with all my heart that my mom will NEVER get this disease....(if youre reading pls pray for my mom too)...it is INCURABLE and its a very painful and cruel way to leave this world...im really afraid...seeing ah yi in this stage made me think back and ponder how i've lived my life as a christian...i've failed in my walk with GOD....i've not lived what i preached and i've not lived as though CHRIST had won the battle for me....my spiritual life is down now....in the deepest valley....even i myself cant seem to find me...where am i now...i want to get out....i want to live a victorious Christian life...most importantly i pray GOD will use me...give me the courage, the boldness, the humility, the never ashame of my faith or christ attitude....to share GOD with as many people as i can...but first i need to pull myself together and get up and start focusing on GOD...today's sermon was definitely FOR ME! 2 things i've set out to do....tt i feel is important to me now...

1) I'll pick myself up spiritually and start moving on...looking toward what GOD has set out for me to do....
2) I'll help my dad and mom even more whenever i can, with all the work they need me to do....be it in the house or helping my dad at his work place...and i will not complain or grumble...

I dont want to regret anything when i look back at my life a few years later....and i want to make sure of that now...

Jesus, you are my reward
To hear your voice on that day
It's all im living for.
Jesus, you are my reward
To see your face on that day
It's all im living for.

God, please help me to find you and to live a christian life that's pleasing to you. Help me Lord, to be obedient and to have the joy of the Lord in all that i do. And i pray too you'll give Dad and Mom good health Lord. Let your angels watch over them and protect them at all times. And God, during this difficult time, i pray for ah yi and her family...God may you be their comfort...may u not let it be so painful for ah yi...most importantly i pray that ah yi's younger son and only daughter and all my other relatives on mom's side will come to know of your saving grace... and God, even as Mom tries to cope with losing ah yi i pray you'll be her strength and her comfort...that she'll lean on you...and through it she can be stronger in you and her faith will grow God...in jesus most mighty name i pray, AMEN!

Tiring but really fruitful day

2006-11-17T23:53:00.000-08:00

What a day to begin with....we had our weekly healthly lifestyle run in camp and this time we embarked on a new route...

Distance covered: Approx 4km
Time spent: Apporx 20mins

Was a very tiring run cos i felt so sleepy...haaa...nevertheless a really good run...was fresh and awake after that...then we had games...so played volleyball with a badminton net....haaaa...we had a match somemore...which we won 27-25....and loser had to serve ice-cream during lunch at cookhouse cos its western day and there's ice-cream...(eventually no ice-cream) haaaa....but i guess we wouldn let our fellow bros do that...it was just a fun game...enjoyed it. =)

Then after course we went back at about 5ish...so dino came to my house cos we had already planned to do 3sets of 2.4km (must attain below 13mins for each set) with an interval of 10mins between each set...dino said his running coach said it'll help build up your stamina...anyway, i was rather uncertain i can finish all 3sets below 13mins...maybe for the first 2 sets...was thinking by the time i come to the 3rd set i'll be too tired already...cos i've never tried it before...haaa...but thanks to dino's motivation i managed to complete it...felt super super good after the run...it was a really good run...tiring but fun definitely. Anyone out there wants to try it? trust me...you'll feel really fresh and energetic after the run!

Distance covered: 2.4km * 3
Rest Time: 10mins between each set
My timing:
1st set: 11:46
2nd set: 11:48
3rd set: 11:58

So after such a good run dino and i went to indulge in some good food....haaa...so we went to jack's place and had our dinner...was rather later by the time our food came...after dinner sent dino home and i went back home...was a really good day....enjoyed the run and time spent with dino....now im just gonna rest my muscles and wait for another day before i start running again....wee!!!!

Dino and i at my place getting ready for run...

Dinner at Jack's Place

Sms-ing away while waiting for food to arrive...

Soupy....

Yummy-licious garlic bread...

Dino's mixed grill set...looks good man!!!

My food...chicken and beef combo!

I have no idea what i was doing!

Long Day....

2006-11-15T21:46:00.000-08:00

It was such a long and unfruitful day in camp today....rush to wait, wait to rush....sigh...these few days of OJT really drained all of us...esp those groups tt's been doing all the physical stuff...like james, doris, alan and issac....they've been pitching tentage since monday and they will be doing so for the next two days too....some more on top of that they've got other things to do...like comms and laundry stuff....really pity them....master jennifer really tekan pple....made everyone stay back till 7pm today...keep asking those groups to pitch the tentage again and again cos she forgot to teach something....so all those groups who're done with their assignments just sit and wait for time to pass....really waste time like tt...its like since OJT started on Monday everyday we're released later and later....tts really bad...cos i usually do my runs after i come back from camp which is usually 6pm... and if im released late...it'll be really hard for me to run cos i dun like running too late in the night....reason being i cant slp....arrghhhh....so its really irritating...sigh...oh well....at least i decided to run today....came back arnd 7plus cos Alvin, Alan, John and myself decided to cab back cos by the time we were released it was 7pm already....super late for pple like us staying in Tampines!!! Did a short run instead of my usual long runs....so went to Tampines stadium and decided to time my 2.4km....clocked 10:30....slow....but kinda good improvement for someone like me who cant run....haaa....gonna try to clock lower than that next round....will be meeting dino this friday to do 3 sets of 2.4km with a 10min break in between....gonna be tiring but fun im sure...

My New Adidas Soccer Boot!

2006-11-12T20:22:00.000-08:00

This came as a surprise...i never expected it and it was very very thoughtful and sweet of the person (asked not to be mentioned) who got me this pair of Adidas Boots...I felt really really bad and did not want to accept such an expensive gift...but i was made to in the end...so to the person (im sure you'll be reading this) who got me this gift...thank you very very much again and i really appreciate someone like you...not cos of the gift but for who you are.

THIS YOU MUST WATCH!!! =)

2006-11-11T22:50:00.000-08:00

Finally got the video of the vocal recital i attended last week...this following video is the duet done by Freda and Fabia...singing "Flower Duet From Lukme" (aka British airways commercial song)...take it away...http://s114.photobucket.com/albums/n280/ragegid/?action=view&current=FredaFabia.flv

ps. Watch it and you know why i say must watch....my hair still stand and my goosebumps came out like nobody's business when i hear them sing...haaa

Day at Sentosa with STC guys

2006-11-11T22:46:00.000-08:00

Today was a really good day...had a great time of fellowship with my fellow coursemates at Sentosa. Met Dino and Issac at 7:30am at Harbour front MRT...Issac i must really say u're a man of your word and you've made me proud by keeping your word and coming so early despite me saying you can meet the rest at 9am instead cos you were so tired...and your msg was really funny, you said:"Na, its ok. Need the extra hours to learn, if not i'll MALU when the playing starts...tmw 7:15 k? If im late call me FRANTICALLY!" haaa....tt really amused me...So Dino, Issac and myself started warming up while waiting for the rest...They came around 10am...Once everybody was here we started playing some friendly games before we counted scores....haaa..it was really funny when the actual game started....everyone was chasing for the ball...cos loser gotta buy lunch (in the end it din happen => )...but after the first set it started to rain and we had to seek shelter....so we waited till the rain to stop before going out for the second set....and eventually we had our 3rd set...and just before the huge downpour (which never stopped even when i reached home)....we decided to head to the shower and call it a day...Warren...im really sorry u din get to play much...but i must salute you man...you came after your guard duty and never complained....up man brother...so all of us got soaked on the way out and when we went to harbour front for lunch we were so cold...esp Dino....haa...it was a really good day....Thank you Dino, Issac, Jianwei, Steven, Farhan, Jacob, Alvin, John, Brendon, Yong Xi, James and Warren....thanks guys for the company and fun and for making the effort to come down...

dino having breakfast....

dino...all set to start the game....just waiting for issac

dino setting the ball

Issac having his breakfast

Issac looking good and having fun

hunks of the day!!!

Dino and me

Issac and dino again =)

Farhan and Jianwei who just arrived getting ready for the action

well positioned for a shot =)

John aka Ah Beng for the day...looking really happy

Issac who came at 7.45am to practise volleyball....he's a fast learner

James feeling the heat

Jianwei all smiles

John looks like he's having backache again...you know what i mean guys....haaa

Talking tactics for the game later on

Issac getting into the mood like a pro

Warm up before the game begins

All set and ready to begin the game

Alvin Serving the ball

James and steven all set

Dino and Farhan in the game

Brendon who got shortlisted for the Siloso beach Hunk and Babes Contest

I dun know why james looks so concerned...

Alvin after serving the ball

James aka Uncle James for the day....picture speaks for itself why....haaaa

Jianwei Serving the ball

Yongxi taking a break

All the hunks of STC!!!

Cheese Fries from New York Pizza

New York Pizza

Having Lunch

Dino having his Subway Burger

Warren enjoying his food

What a Wonderful Night

2006-11-09T07:08:00.000-08:00

Today, after course i went back home and drove out to meet Dino for dinner...and to go get a volleyball at queensway...so we met at ABC market at 8pm and had dinner...Dino ordered SOOoooo much food...we both had a hard time finishing all the food lah....ha...but it was such an enjoyable time and the food was good too...after which we went to queensway to get a volleyball for our course mates...cos there's gonna be a volleyball game this sat and we needed a soft cushion volleyball...so it was a short time together but it was such an awesome time with Dino...thanks bro! =)

Yummy Sotong!!!

Spicy Stingray...

Satay anyone??

One of my FAV dish Kang Kong

My rice....

Digging In...

Happy happy Dino

Me...

A Night Of Talents

2006-11-05T19:40:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was Freda, Fabia and Johann's recital....it was a performance by all of Lily's vocal students and i really enjoyed the whole thing....esp the duet "Flower Duet From Lukme" (aka British airways commercial song) by Freda and Fabia...totally beyond words...Johann on the other hand did "Drink with me" from Les Miserables....It was really a good performance by them....the only sad thing for the night was i had to be confined to my seat to take the pictures....haaa....so...enjoy!

Jeremy talking to Geraldine

Freda with the First perdormance of the night singing "Tonight" from WEST SIDE STORY

Freda and the pianist

Fabia with her solo singing "If I Loved You" from CAROUSEL

Fenni singing "Reflection" from WALT DISNEY MULAN accompined by Freda on the piano

Close up of Fenni

Grand Finale Medley From ABBA...take note of their mouths in the next few pictures

mouth 2

mouth 3

All Smiles for the night

Waving Goodnight

Peter and Jon

The TAYS!!!

From Left, Fabia Johann and Freda

Joey and Johann

Joey and Fabia

Joey and Freda

Reflection

2006-11-01T22:14:00.000-08:00

Its November...how time flies....its almost the end of 2006....im reflecting back on the entire year....and i ask myself:

1) Have i grown spiritually?
2) What are the mistakes i made that needs to be rectified?
3) What have i done with my time...has it been fruitful?
4) Where am i now and what do i want to do with my life?

I've got to plan for year 2007, to lead an even more fruitful and christ like life....come up with my resolutions and DO IT! I hope i can....2006 has been a year full of ups and downs, joy and pain for me....esp what happened a few months ago...it seems to never leave me...it always comes to my mind....EVERYDAY since tt day....not a single day i lived my life without thinking about it...i pray and pray someday things will be good...someday....

Matthew 5:46-48

2006-10-22T22:43:00.000-07:00

46
If you love those who love you,
What reward will you get?
Are not even the tax collectors doing that?

47
And If you greet only your brothers,
What are you doing more than others?
Do not even pagans do that?

48
Be perfect, therefore,
As your heavenly Father is perfect.

How easy it is for us to love someone who's lovable...are not pre-believers doing that too? What makes you different then as a christian? As christians we often talk about God and how he loves us...you...me... etc etc etc...but when it comes to crunch time...we often shove the unlovable aside...im guilty of that at times...i've got nothing to hide about it...but at least i know and i recognise my mistake...and im working on it each day to change and show love...think about it...when was the last time u shove someone you don't like away...i dont mean physically...it might be an intention of the heart...that was carried out through other means...and worse of all...to use it as an excuse that the person has a particular flaw that you cant accept...pushing the blame to the other party...would you like it if someone else did that to you? Esp if that someone meant something to you...Think properly how hurting it can get...Everyone has flaws...if you can't accept other people's flaws and yet talk so much about love aren't you setting double standards? So you think you loved?

Unaware Victims Of Nikon D70S

2006-10-21T04:27:00.000-07:00

These shots i took were taken with a Nikon D70S...i really love the camera...cool stuff...and of cos i caught some of my fellow course mates unaware...dun like to take pictures of people who end up posing for the camera...im not being rude...but cos its my preference...i'll still take if you pose...heee....prefer shots like these cos posed shots have no origninality plus its not natural...i love natural shots...speaks much of a person... =)

Doris

Sheikh

James

Staff Cheong

Junaidi

Aziz

My Barang Barang!

2006-10-17T05:16:00.000-07:00

i just went through some of the old stuff i have at home...and guess what i found...*grinz* all wedding stuff....firstly its Josh and Anna's Wedding photos...which Daniel Heng and I had the honour of shooting...we did some outdoor shoot for them before the wedding day as well as the actual day photo shoot and video...here's some of their photographs...its amatuer shots k...one of the first few shoots Daniel and I did together so...dun expect too much...heee....and secondly its David and Audrey's Pre-Wedding "Rescue" video done by all the brothers which i shot and which Ricky and Shuan edited...its a must watch...you will laugh till stomach cramp!! (leave some comments if you wish too)...meantime enjoy =)

Taken near One Fullerton at the Umbrella Men...

Taken at Esplanade Walkway...

Taken at Changi Airport Terminal 1...

Taken at East Coast Park...

Taken at Changi Airport Terminal 1...

For David and Audrey's Pre-Wedding Video I had to split into 2 different parts cos photobucket only allow 5min video upload so...watch part one then part two k guys...=)
David & Audrey's Pre-Wedding Rescue Video Part 1
click to watch!!!

David & Audrey's Pre-Wedding Rescue Video Part 2
click to watch!!!

How Silly Can I Get?

2006-10-16T04:21:00.000-07:00

So...its Sunday morning...and im on my way to church for the 11:15 am service...Then as usual when i passed by Tampines Interchange...i was immediately approached by an insurance agent..and so like i always do...i said:"Its abt insurance? Its ok, im in a rush, thanks"...and she let me go...*phew*...usually its not the case cos they're pretty presistent and they will say like oh just a while lah...blah blah blah..but she seemed like she's new in this line so....you know...within a week i can get approached by these agents like...over 10 times...i've already got insurance...and im wondering, i wear civilian clothing and yet they still approach me...like i've got a stamp on my head that says... NSF, come trick me to buy insurance!! aiyo...then besides that its like you know those MacDonald's promoter or just normal people giving out brouches, papers etc...i really dun like to take all these papers...and so i'll have to keep saying "No thanks" or "It's ok".. (and smile) cos its only polite and courteous to do so...after all they're just doing their job...so with all that in my mind i finally reached church...and i was taking my ipod out to switch it off..cos was gonna go into the chapel already...then suddenly...i said:"No thanks, its ok"...to WHO?? I only realised i said it to the USHER that was only trying to give me the sermon outline and the grace pointer when i sat down....my goodness!!! AIYO....so MALU...i still can like eh...where's my sermon outline and grace pointer...then i recalled him giving me that strange and shocked expression...he must be really taken aback lah..."No thanks" & "It's ok"...Im so SILLY....

Who are YOU?

2006-10-14T23:19:00.000-07:00

You looked only at what other's have done wrong...
You never looked at yourself...

You thought things were resolved...
You left a broken hearted behind...

You made yourself sound like the victim...
You made someone your victim...

You thought you were right...
You never saw where you went wrong...

You asked me why am i like that...
You never learnt to accept...

You thought you did it for a good reason...
You were just being selfish...

You seemed nice to everyone...
You were never true...

You thought you knew what love was...
You never knew how to love...

Freda's Bdae & My Day

2006-10-12T23:23:00.000-07:00

Freda Looks Blur =)

Mini Fondue and Satay Gravy...
What A Spreadddd!!!!

Baby Linus's fav line..."yummy yummy"

It's Freda's birthday...and we've got a surprise up our sleeves...was kinda last minute notice cos Ricky was only informed yesterday to gather us for this surprise...so i ended up having to rush back from camp...went to tampines mall and got her a nice purple card with a detachable bookmark which i think is really lovely...then cos of the lack of time i got her vouchers from Charles & Keith as a present (at least better than ricky and jeremy...both bought perfume!!) Haaa...then went home, took a quick shower and drove down to Freda's parent's place immediately....everything was going good...everyone came on time(8pm) and we waited till about 8ish coming 9pm for her to come back cos she went out with Peter and baby Linus for dinner....so in the meantime we took the time to write our birthday cards, decide where to hide and how to surprise her, and get the cake ready etc..then suddenly without any warning their car pulled up at the front door(wasn suppose to be like that cos they usually honk when they're back)...we saw the headlights and immediately went into a frenzy...got the cake out from the fridge and lit the candles quickly...then we rushed to their room to hide...along with the cake...we were like mad dogs running around cos we left all our bags and presents lying around...and so into the room we went...lights were off and we were in position...ready to sing out loud once she opens the door...kinda funny cos we were each trying to come out with a "key" to start the song...so we waited and waited then the door opened..it was Peter...so we kept real quiet...he came to tell us Freda went to the toilet(which was our initial place to hide in)...then Peter went out to try to get her to come to the room...so we waited...another minute passed by and no signs of her...then the door opened..."ta da..." Peter came to say:"come out...she knows already" *Booooo...mission failed* haaa...appraently Johann's big bag left lying around was seen by Freda as she went to put Linus's bag...and her dad actually confirmed it by asking Freda:"So where are they"...haaa....gave our game away...nevertheless we came out and sang her a bdae song etc...then went downstairs to have a time of fellowship...had alot of good food...fondue(the choc was abit sour...we all agreed on tt...haaa)....chicken wing....satay...cake...simple stuff but really...wat a nice and great time of fellowship we had...then i went to play with baby Linus after that...he's SOoooo adorable....haaa...he loves playing football and so we both had a great time...with him chasing me the whole time trying to get the soccer ball...and so i took the opportunity to educate him how to ask for the ball and of cos after he asked...i always do this to kids just for your information...heee...i said:"give me a kiss first?"...and he did....haaa...hey im not bribing them or cheating them k...if they dun want to give they wont give one...heh! Then it was time to go back and baby Linus said bye to everyone...and it was by name k...so he pronounced mine as "me-deonnnnnn...." and he dargged the deon...haaa...so CUTE...and when Peter asked him to kiss Jeraldine and Jeremy he refused but when Linus was asked to kiss me he gladly planted a kiss on my cheek...haaa...wat a sweet boy...truly made MY DAY!!

Painful Memories

2006-10-12T00:24:00.000-07:00

I've been trying to sleep the past 1hr-ish...but i just cant fall asleep...i used to say:"we'll create beautiful memories together"...but now all i can say is i've created a whole load of painful memories to bear with for the rest of my life...its been almost 4months since tt very day...things just changed by a word...but inside of me...till this very day...things have not changed...the pain i've to go through each day...the memories that haunt me...what have i done SO WRONG to deserve all tt...so many things had been said to justify the reason given...but what is love at the end of the day? I used to tell myself if i ever love...i'll love wholeheartedly, be faithful and committed...i never once gave my heart to someone till im sure because i dun want to hurt anyone...and i never want to take love lightly...moreover to treat it as a game...but i've been fooled...the one who thought love will last forever...was left dealing with the PAIN while the one who wanted out...left happily and showed no signs of sadness till this day...was DISAPPOINTED by the very pple that he thought were his frens but turned their backs on him without hearing from him...was labelled CHILDISH...was called EMOTIONAL...was said to be INSECURE all the time...was CRUSHED so deeply he'll never forget it...was BETRAYED by the very words that told him how love was meant to be...I never in my entire life...NEVER thought somone could hurt me so so badly...i might as well be stabbed in my heart...cos at least tt will end the pain straight away...can anyone understand the pain i've to bear with? NO! And no one will EVER...i can hide it but i cant deny it...if that is how love is to be...i'll never want to have it...All i did was to LOVE...but i got SLAPPED and got nothing back and even have to deal with the lost ON MY OWN! when will it be over...it'll never ever be...its here to stay and it will be with me the rest of my life...and i'll have to take it with me FOREVER....DUN EVER SAY U LOVE SOMEONE WITHOUT THINKING CLEARLY WHAT LOVE MEANS....dun....

Full of Frustrations

2006-10-08T00:48:00.000-07:00

Im tired....and i want to slp...but i have so much frustrations i must let it out somewhere...it all started in the evening...my dad called me...and he asked:"what are u doing tmw?"...i really dread it whenever he ask me that...cos thats = i need help tmw...its last min..arrghhh...i got so frustrated..he does it to me ALL THE TIME! And i've already told him like a MILLION times NOT to tell me last minute stuff and esp NOT to touch my SUNDAYS! sigh...i've always felt very obliged to help my parents with their work...cos they're not young and i dun want them to overwork...its not the negative side of obligation but rather the i dun want them to work so hard or get injured or sick....and in fact i've always felt like im the only one they depend on(cos im the older son, plus i drive... and my sis usually dun help cos for the obvious reason she's a girl) and tts a whole load of responsibility...and if i dun help or cant for some reason i'll feel really bad and i'll feel like im a lousy son...but i also dun like it when my dad gives me last min stuff to handle...its like i've arranged everything nicely and plan who to meet or where to go and blah blah blah...then out of no where he'll come and tell me he needs help...i'll feel super irritated cos i have to cancel everything and go help him...then after telling me that, 10 minutes later i received another call from my dad and he ask me to go down in 5 mins to help him...im like....WAT! Cos i have to meet rach to practise for e workplan worship tmw morning which she's leading(rach u owe me one cos u said u'll come to my house 5pm but u never!!! u always put me plane! heee)...and if i go means i cant practise with rach till i come back and i dun know wat time will tt be...then if i dun go help my dad...NO ONE ELSE CAN! sigh...so once again i went...then he was like rushing and all...and i really dun like him rushing esp when he's behind the wheel...cos he'll end up driving fast...and he'll be really frustrated and he'll tailgate SUPER DUPER closely to the car in front...if u sit in his car when he's like tt and ur heartbeat dun go up twice or thrice i'll buy u a CAR!!! i've told him so many times dun tailgate...dun rush...cos accidents WILL happen....and he's got heart problem before and this kind of stress and rushing will trigger his heart even more...sigh...just when will he listen? Then also because he kept wanting to rush i got a huge cut on my back now...arrghh...so so frustrated...there's alot more but i think u guys will be sick and tired of it if i go on blabbing! So end of story is i got home...rushed to rach's house and practise then rush back and shower....and then here i am bloggin my frustrations...i really pray my dad will listen to advice one day...i know he just wants to give us the best but i dun want him to be doing it at a risky expense....im just gonna go slp now...its almost 1am i gotta wake up at 5ish...really tired now...

Day 1

2006-10-04T07:35:00.001-07:00

I had such a terrible night yesterday...tossed and turned on my bed for an hour plus before i slept off...arrghhh....couldnt sleep cos i was feeling so breathless due to the excessive coughing...to make things worse...i woke up at 5.30am this morning...sigh...have been sick for so many days...and i dun really wanna go see a doc cos i dun like to...guess i have no choice..gotta see one soon not i'll have more sleepless nights to come...anyway first day at new camp...it was really really BOOORRRING!!! lecture after lecture the WHOLE day...plus we ended only at 6plus...then i rushed home cos i gotta go back to my unit tonight to continue doing the COC video...guess wat...mom suddenly say she needs the car too to send some mooncakes to my aunt...so i had to drive her down and back before going back to camp...by the time i reach camp it was already 9pm...and i haven even had my dinner...so no choice...bought Chong Pang Nasi Lemak on the way lor...and eat in camp while i do the video...think if i everyday rush like tt i'll just collapse man...although im very fit one...right!!! haaa...think i shall attempt to slp now cos i got a feeling im gonna take a long time to fall asleep again....bleah!!! night folks

You GOTTA read this!!

2006-10-03T21:31:00.000-07:00

I just found out from another guy that's from 23SA who's also on the Supply Supervisor Course that my course is a...hear this....STAY OUT course...Praise The Lord! Who would have thought of that? Story is this, rem in my earlier post i said i cant serve in ministry cos of my early book in timing 2230...plus army keeps giving me all the last minute stuff...then as of last week i got good news that our book in timing is being extended to 2330...so that's pretty good...means i can serve...but also still quite rush cos gotta book in after practise...then guess what...now im getting a book out course...Woa...dun need to book in after practise...plus i can go home first after my course and get the car out so wont reach home too late after pract...then after my course i'll be SGT which means my book in timing will be 2359 instead and i can book out everyday!!! WOA...God works in amazing ways we CANNOT understand..at least for ME!..Amazing...nothing stops the work of God...i really praise him and give thanks and glory to him for all of that...Amen!

So Last Minute!!

2006-10-03T12:41:00.000-07:00

Arrghhh....army is always so last minute...guess what just happened. My chief clerk called me to go down to the office to see her...then when i went there she said:"Gideon, will u buy me lunch if i tell u tt u're downgraded to C9L2?"..i was like...ok mdm, wats the hidden agenda? Then she told me tmw i got to report to my new camp(sembawang camp) for supply supervisor course...*Bleah* i freaked out man...super last minute notice...its like taking me out of my comfort zone...after settling down in this battalion now i have to get used to another environment...arrgh...now back to trainee life...which means waking up early, gotta march, gotta book out late and book in early, less nights off or even no nights off...AHHHH!!!!! Means i might not be able to go back to play drums....*crushed*..God pls tell me whats going on and what u have for me...im so ignorant tt i simply cant see what u have installed for me...now i just gotta pray hard tt this course is stay out...sigh...currently my S3 just sent a mail to the course commander requesting me to come back every night cos im suppose to be doing the COC parade videos and photos...and the COC parade is coming 20th OCT...and if i go whos gonna do?? cos the other person who knows how to do these stuff is my staff whos on course too...aiyo...so many changes and so much things going on...i really dun like things to be so disorganised and unconfirmed!! HELP....

Im Sick

2006-10-02T21:16:00.000-07:00

Im feeling sick since yesterday...after dinner i just slept all the way till i had to book in and i had to drag myself back to camp...woke up today feeling so tired and so sick...arrghh...then i spend like dun noe how long trying to figure my new blog skin out...cos its like on mozilla firefox it displays something but on internet explorer it displays something else...*bleah* y cant someone make it more user friendly??

Moving On...

2006-10-01T19:09:00.000-07:00

Im bloggin again...after a long wk..nothing much went on the entire wk...just really random stuff...and me picking myself up and finding where i am in God...its been a rather good time of self reflection..still struggling but moving on slowly...Today i went to Suhui jie's SEC1 cell meeting to have a time of worship with them...it was awesome...i loved it. We were worshipping in the open..in front of the flag pole(cell's in a secondary sch)...yup...weather was gloomy but alright...humid but not hot...but i loved the closeness we had with each other despite the vast open space...i've always dreamt of leading worship in the open...in front of loads of people...coming together to have a time of worship in the open where everyone can hear about who we're singing about!! Awesome time of worship as i see the younger ones engaging God in their own way...i had a great time of worship myself too...and then off to service...Pastor Paul Goulet preached today...about finding our destiny that God has for us...i felt so ministered, blessed and refresehed by the sermon...plus the really good time of altar call which goes on and on and on...haaa...those who were there will know what i mean...great great time of lingering and worshipping God...not rush but just waiting on the Lord...i loved tt...then had lunch with Peter's family, Wheijie & Fabia + their australia frens and Ricky. I love Linus Mark(Peter's son)...he's super adorable...and he
can self entertain somemore...in the car he was like...first he screamed...then he said:
"No screaming"...then "Naughty"...haaa...all of tt in tt cute voice of his...*awww*...haaa...then we went to a thai restaurant and i ate some thai fried noodle...yummy....it was super good...recommanded by Fabia...it had 3chilli sign(the max) next to it...and she was saying when Joey ate it..he asked for less chilli but still ended up having a bad time...ha...poor guy! But im chilli king...heh! So to me it wasnt tt hot and it was really delicious and tasty...then off to soccer training...had a good time too....now im bk at home...getting ready to book in...*sian* back to military life again...and this wk i have loads of work to do in office...hope i wont slack and can finish it in time...got to chao for dinner folks...have a blessed and fruitful wk ahead. =)

Nothing

2006-09-24T22:05:00.000-07:00

I haven been blogging the last few days cos i just really have no mood to...alot has been going on and i feel like im riding on the emotional rollercoaster again...its never ending...i never imagined my life wuld come to a point where i'll have to go through so much...and its even come to a point i fear wat else is ahead for me in my life tt i have to live with and cope with...to think tt i cant even handle wat im going through now...wat else can i when im sure there's gonna be greater challenges and tests ahead for me...my only hope lies in the LORD! To whom i seek and cry out to...i got nothing to say...i really need revival...

Im Scared...

2006-09-20T22:11:00.001-07:00

I had alot of time tonight to myself...everyone went out for their nights out...i din cos im on duty...i had so much time i became so pensive i felt im back to my emo self...im scared to hope and trust for something that's not there at all...i feel really depressed about it. What if i put so much of myself into it and get disappointed at the end of the day...i really dun want to be hurt again...i dun want...how do i ever trust someone believing that the person will not be letting me down...im scared to give part of myself away...it means im putting myself in a very vulnerable position....i hope if you're reading this tt u be thankful for people who actually trust you...it takes something from tt person to be doing that...dun ever let that someone who trust u with all their heart down...because there's too much pain and hurt to deal with that its gonna take a long time for that person to trust anyone again...my heart's crying out loud to you Lord...where do i go from here God...

Back in Camp

2006-09-19T22:53:00.000-07:00

So...its tuesday...and im back in camp...after a rather long and good rest over the wkend...btw really thank God, spoke to Lily about my vocal lesson..and i think more or less its confirmed tt she'll be able to teach me...phew! Gotta see her early oct for interview and get to know her studio policy...etc etc...im excited...heard so much abt her...think im gonna be so busy this wk...lotsa work to do and wkend will be so rush with Wheijie and Fabia's wedding cos im helping them film...then sunday got to come bk camp cos im on duty...bleah!!! totally burn my wk...lately i've been feeling so confused abt smth...n i really ask humbly for u guys to pray for me tt watever decision i have to make i'll be wise and tt God will guide me...its really a tough period and i hope i can handle all the emotions tt'll be coming my way...oh...u know yesterday i finally realised how Pastor Ronald felt when he said his heart felt sad when he had to discipline carrisa and when he "beats" her...cos Chloe was caught peeing in the kitchen instead of the toilet...then my mom grabbed her and use a ruler and spank her buttocks!!! haaa...it was funny cos at the moment she saw my mom she knew she had to run cos she did something wrong and she's gonna get punished...then i felt so bad...she looked so cute and helpless when being beaten...but she has to be taught...hopefully someday she learn to pee n poo in the right place...hee...Anyway for all of you out there who likes to dance...i've uploaded the dance my bmt mates and i did during our bmt days just click here..it was really fun. it was my first time dancing and i think i enjoyed it alot with the guys...maybe after i've completed all the training i want to i'll go join dance...since the doc says i got loose joints...maybe i can find myself doing some strange things...haaa...

Romans 8:28

2006-09-19T20:33:00.001-07:00

Romans 8:28

28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been

called according to his purpose.

Just one short but powerful verse tt's touched my heart...hear this, in ALL THINGS...God works for the GOOD of those who LOVE HIM...no matter wat decision i make...i know its a win win situation for me if i truly love God with all my heart...because God has given his promise...Amen...hallelujah...We can never make a lifetime of "right n Godly" decision and we never will...but how amazing and liberating it is to know tt God not only will bless u and work things out for you when u make decision tt he desires and does wat he plans for you but most importantly he also gave us a way to be blessed by him cos in our sinful nature we will make wrong decisions at some point of our life...but its because he loves us and wants us to be more like him...tt he gave us a promise as such...I feel so blessed by this verse today...i hope u folks out there will too be blessed and know tt your faithfulness to God will never go to waste...because GOD WILL HONOUR you.

Lord I pray i'll love u with all my heart God, help me Lord to find where i stand in you, in this period of emotional pains and struggles i ask of you Lord to hear my cry and grant me a way, search me and reveal to me areas which are not pleasing to you Lord...and change me Lord, to be more like YOU! In Jesus most victorious name i pray, AMEN!

My Sunday

2006-09-18T01:45:00.001-07:00

Today after church i went out with Jenn...had a good talk on some issue...you know bro(if u're reading this)...i really thank God for you...tt even though u've been busy...u never fail to stand by me when i needed help the most...u've guided me along when im down and helped me so much...i love u bro...u mean alot to me...Anyway after meeting out with Jenn i went to meet joey and he rest for soccer....finally...after SSSOoOOoo...LONG cos of army! ha. And i brought Andy and Jason along too. It was great having such fun with the rest of the guys again...but i doubt i'll go back to the team for good cos of my leg condition...the doc said my joints are really loose...like if i change direction too fast...my ankle will be in one direction while by body in the other( it DID HAPPEN before!!!)...haaa...and oh ya....the doc found out smth strange i can do...can u actually pull ur thumb down to touch ur wrist?? i can...and guess wat the doc told me...go bk and see wat other strange things u can do...wierd!! where got doc say this kinda things to patients one...so after soccer i went back early cos i got dinner with my aunt(who came bk from australia to visit) and my unlce(rach's dad whom i mention came back from shanghai)...yeah...played with me little cousin who came along...he's really funny...wait till i get a picture of him i'll upload it...im gonna slp sad today cos MAN UTD LOST!!! last min ditch by Arsenal...arrghhh....but it was well derserved...arsenal played better football...disappointing and lacklustre performance by united...ohwell...hope tmw when i wake up the sun will shine brightly and the day will be good...nite folks

Im Tired...

2006-09-17T00:09:00.001-07:00

i just got home...had such a long day. Went to help my dad with his business from early afternooon...sent some stuff to G1 and G2...oh...n i saw my uncle(rach's dad whos back from shanghai) at G1..was glad to see him...he's one of my fav uncles...took care of me and my bro when we were younger cos we stayed at his place...haaa..those were the days....then went for jason's(platoon mate) 21st bdae after tt...brought my puppy(name's Chloe) along cos she'll go on a rampage if she's
home alone...this jason ah...he's the host and the BDAE boy but from the moment i arrived till the moment i left i only saw him like for 5mins...cos he went to holland V with stanley to buy ice and some other stuff....aiyo he shld have stayed and get someone to help him buy...everyone's like wondering where's jason...so funny to have a bdae when the bdae boy not around...like huh!!! Then cos my parents came to pick me up so i had to rush...din even get to take picture with jason...argh...nvm...we'll "deal" with him and the rest who last min put "aeroplane" and din turn up...on monday when we're bk in camp...got to go slp man...*yawn*

No Love But Always Loved..

2006-09-15T14:35:00.000-07:00

Have
u ever loved someone and for a long time thought tt someone loved you but you were totally wrong when u realise tt someone doesnt love u anymore and tt someone was just "trying to love you" all along. Can u ever say u love someone repeatedly and overnight say u dont? What is love exactly.
1 Corinthians 13
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered,
style="font-size:130%;color:purple;">it keeps no record of wrongs.

6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I thought certain things once i put it aside and dun think about it...it'll never come and

bother me...im wrong...things tt happened are never supposed to be put aside...i need to

deal with it and face it and grow....but im tired...really tired....its been so

long...there's been so much pain...

"God i need to forgive and let go. I need to grow and move on....pls help me GOD! In jesus name i pray, Amen. Your child...gid...."

Feeling EMO....

2006-09-14T23:36:00.000-07:00

I just came back to camp not long ago. Had nights out and i went to causeway point with Andy. Had a good time with this dude...am glad i get a chance to go
out with him. We walked around abit and looked at some stuff. Then i came upon a shop tt brought back some memories...suddenly a train of emotions just overwhelm me at tt point. Happy memories are painful to think about when u lose tt someone u shared the memory with.
Certain things are just not reversible. Guys and gals out there....learn to cherish the people u have around you NOW!!! Dont ever take it for granted tt they'll always be there...cos someday they just might not be anymore...So be true and treat pple around you with the love the LORD has showered upon us. I thank God his love for me is always there and this love never fails. Just spoke to Freda a while ago. Had a good conversation with her regarding the vocal lesson...i've kinda decided to ask Lily (the really good vocal coach....yes the one i have to pay $50ish..) if she has anymore vacant space to take in new students. Problem is he only teaches on Mondays(i cant come out of camp), Wednesdays(i might have prob getting back to camp in time cos she stays at harbour front area) and Fridays(she might not have an available night session)...sigh....will talk to Lily personally to see how things can be arranged...hope u guys have been having a great wk...tomorrows friday so its already almost the wkend...for those working hang in there and u'll get a nice break during the wkend...for those studying...esp those whos having exams...JIA YOU JIA YOU!!! Im still feeling down...gonna go slp and hopefully i wake up feeling better Lord....goodnight pals

For My Pal ANDY!!!

2006-09-14T14:45:00.001-07:00

Special request by Andy my platoon mate....haaa...=)
~MAN UTD ROCKS~

Hmmm...wat to do?

2006-09-14T14:17:00.001-07:00

Arrghh....FREDA cant teach singing...bleah...thought of asking her to teach me singing since i've gotten the budget...but she's currently not giving vocal lessons...and the other vocal teacher i know..(who taught Johann and is teaching Freda now) is charging 90bucks per session...my oh my...wat am i gonna do man...after subsidy i'll still need to fork out like $52.50...*HEART PAIN*...i know i dun want to offer God anything tt wont cost me anything but its like 50ish....i still got hp bills, insurance, transport fares to take care of..where i find money?? Any kind souls wanna donate to the newly established fund of MR LIM here?? But im not complaining cos im already thankful tt the church has given me this training budget...lately i've been reminded to be thankful for all tt i have and not complain and be sad abt wat i dun and wat i've lost...how narrow minded of me and how self centered of me to keep thinking of myself...What God has given me all my life can never be used to compare with wat i dun have. Even for the simplest things i want to give God all the Glory and praise.
Luke 12
Do Not Worry

22 Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your

life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear.

23 Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes.

24 Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet

God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds!

25 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[b]?

26 Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?

27 "Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even

Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.

28 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow

is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith!

29 And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it.

30 For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need

them.

31 But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.

Wat truths and promises we all can hold on to. Thank God.

Battalion BBQ

2006-09-13T22:53:00.000-07:00

Battalion BBQ just ended. It was a crazy time. Din expect it to be so fun and interacting. Cos its like most of us are new to each other in the battalion...but hey, brothers are brothers...when it comes to fun no one cares who u r. So it started with us cooking for the "BIG HEADS!" (Chief of Artillery, CO,
Formation RSM etc etc...)...all our food got "stolen"....haa...but its ok. hope they dun end up getting food poisoning cos my frens mixed the tong used to take raw food with the one tts used to KIAP the cooked food. Now the thing is after we're done cooking for the "BIG HEADS", we thought we finally can get some food of our own. But i had to take picture and my other fren had to take video. And so by the time we're done....our spot at the BBQ pit was OWNED(dota term) by others. There's only like TWO(eng)....liang ge(chinese)....NENG EH(hokkien)....DUA(malay)...NANG EH(foochow--which happens to be my dialect n am proud of it...heh!) pathetic BBQ pits for the WHOLE BATTALION! For those who dun know how big a battalion is go ask ur bros, fathers, boy frens whos been in army. So no choice...we stuffed ourselves with fried rice....no BBQ food...i wasn satisfied so i decided to go get my spot back and when i did go over....hey...guess wat....just one nice corner at the pit for me to set up my MAMA shop!!! haaa...relac one corner brother! So started cooking for the rest of the guys as well...then my fren ZHUO JINWEI....we call him ZHUO D(dentention) B(barracks) cos he almost kena.....did the worse thing he ever did in his life...he went to chio my CO to drink beer....now of all pple he go chio the CO of my unit...not tt rank matters...but everyone in the unit knows my CO is a hardcore drinker...and so tts how his night ended....haaa...with red face, bloated stomach, and he went vommitting in the toilet...Dun understand wats so nice abt beer...i never once liked it...though i never once tried it either...my furtherest was...guess wat...JOLLY SHANDY...i cant even drink tt for nuts....think i drink beer will go into coma! ha. Its so late and all of them are still downstairs singing and partying...everyone's like overly HIGH!!! i want to SLEEP!!!

Im Pissed....

2006-09-13T13:42:00.001-07:00

Story is this. Company XXX(i cant say lest i get sued by them) is having a sale(today only for SAF personnels) on most items in their store. N just nice i thought of getting a mp3 player. So i called them yesterday n asked if i could go down yesterday(thinking they might let me have the discount if i showed them my 11B) cos i might not be able to go down today as my battalion is having some BBQ thing. Then they say cannot. So never mind. Then i asked them wat items are on discount and how much discount is given on the items. The reply was we don't know, u'll have to call us tomorrow during the actual sale then we will know cos the management will only reveal it tomorrow. So ok fine. then i called them again today, asked the same qns...guess wat the sales assistant told me....er..i cant tell u, u have to come down personally to take a look, reason being the discount price given on the spot wont tally with the discount price shown in the computer's system cos according to him it will prob be cheaper. So i said ok, so can i have a rough gauge of the discounted price of an ipod. Then he said, "you called yesterday right, i thought i told u yesterday". Then he proceed to tell me the original price, and i was like, "k so u cant say how much discount is given or whether its on discount", and he said ya you have to come down and take a look....and im like....SHOCKED!!! i told him, "oh....u cant say, then wat discount are u having if you cant tell ur customer whether the item is on discount or not and wat if someone goes all the way down just to find tt the item he/she wants is not on discount". i mean....arrghh....am too aggitated. Don't understand e system....shall go cool down...bleagh!!

My Very First Post

2006-09-12T15:32:00.000-07:00

hmmm....now i dun really know why i started this blog...first of all, im not a very expressive person, secondly i feel certain personal things should never go beyond the internet...but watever the case is..im here. typing my 1st post. irony. well...to start off i guess i have to do an introduction right? cos tts wat blogs are about...talking about your life, sharing about things tts been happening to you..blah blah blah...k. Im born in 13Jan1985 at KK hospital and my mom said
i came out at 12midnight. How cool? If only it was new years day, i'll get HONGBAO! errr....think tts too much history. Let's start from a few days ago. Sunday. Hmmm....went
forrach's(my cousin) cell in the morning...had
an opportunity to share with her kids on how to prepare worship...man it was exciting.
Though i wasnt entirely prepared (cos she told me like the night before and i was busy
doing something else for my dad), i still am really glad tt i got to share with them. N
guess wat...thank God i brought the file which contained notes on worship leading which i've done for one of the workshops im to prepare with jenn
for the EA trip last year (or was it last last??)...helped me alot cos i was stoning due to the lack of sleep (slept at 2am n woke up at 7am, now i know some will say tts alot of rest cos u guys out there are MAD!!! you dun slp!) n couldn get my brain to generate much thoughts last min. So am really thankful God made a way somehow out of nowhere. yup. so we started with a time of worship, oh ya, their cell meeting is in a KTV room (its in a condo, one of rach's cell gals house), so all the better....sing it out loud for the lord man. HALLELUJAH! Christian KTV...cool! Then i had a time of sharing n interacting with them. I felt so happy. It was something i haven done in a long time (knocks my head!! Guilty guilty!). Really enjoyed the time with them...this brings me to a current problem im struggling with...i haven lead worship for a long time since i got into army, n i feel so out of touch with the youths. Now tt i have tt LITTLE, tinnie winnie LITTLE time to squeeze out of army, i want to go back to serving in ministry (i know i can serve in army too =>). I MIss drumming too. I did drum for Lee Choo and Peter's team within the past two months, but cos of army i really dun know how i can commit. Nothing beats a good time of worship with your bros n sis. But prob is army is giving me alot of last min stuff which makes me afraid to commit to serving. cos i dun want to last min have to play my team out cos army got some stuff...n finding someone to replace is not an easy thing cos we're so shorthanded. arrrghh....GOD make a way please. Anyway thank God, the church has allowed me to go for vocal training...thought of doing this for a long time but just didn have the motivation(BAD!!). But i finally stop procrastinating... and asked Pastor CuiXian to help me budget...now its confirmed...i can be on my way...yup. guess tts enough stuff for the first post...too long i feel...bear with me k...first post. i hate reading long posts too. so i guess i'll type mine shorter next time round! ha.